Showing posts with label Literary. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Literary. Show all posts

Monday, August 18, 2014

Inspirations and Motivations


I am writing again. I discovered that I am discovering my poetry. A sign along the lonely road I thread.  
Kalipay kung Taguipusoon

Pananglitan nga rong aton nga daean
Indi eon magsub-eang sa unhan
Sa tindahan rong isda nga mub-ead
Magapadumdum kimo
Nga ikaw ro matuod nga mahae
Owa eon it iba pa.

Pananglitan nga rong aton nga eandong
Indi eon makatao it handong sa hilamon
Sa simbahan rong siga it kandila
Magapadumdum kimo
Ikaw man lang rong kasadya it taguipusoon
Owa eon it iba pa.

Ag pananglitan nga hilipatan mo
Sa madueom, matapo-tapo nga kwarto
Ro binaeaybay it kahapon magapadumdum kimo
Ikaw ratong ginatumod ko, hinigugma nga engkantada
Kalipay ag baeay ku baeatyagon nga nagapadayon
Halin pa kato hasta sa gihapon.
I write poems to express what is happening inside my heart. I write poems when the emotion is strong and wanting release. I write poems to convey my feelings of love and admiration. I write poems to tell you that you are special and I love you.

I write essays and narratives to express what is going on around. I write essays and journal to document the things as they happen that I may remember. I write journal whenever I need to process my coming to be -- a sort of psycho-analyses of the reality as it manifests itself in my consciousness.


I write when I am problematic. I write when the enchantress is nice to me. I write when I am troubled by the events as they unfold. I write to earn a living. I write from time to time to compose a book someday.

 I used to write as a form of prayer. I used to write in lieu of meditating. I used to write to contemplate on the nature of the subject matter of my thought. I used to write as a form of introspection with the hope of reconciling my brokenness and recollecting my shattered self. 

Monday, March 3, 2014

Marso

March is popularly known in the community as the Fire Prevention Month. Unknown to many, it is also Culture and Arts Awareness Month (NCCA sets in between February and March). SB Patrick and the MTDC have several school-based activities to observe the NCCA mandate. Earlier, I posted a "photo poem" in my FB Account, hoping to heighten local appreciation to the arts and culture preservation. Personally, it was a tacit greeting to a friend who is celebrating her birthday today. I was happy to note later on that some of those who affirmed or "like" the post came up with their Akeanon poems posted in their profile. Yes, it takes only a spark to get the fire going, as a song goes.

"Amat-amat ro maberde nga kakahoyan
Naeakayan it nanari-sari nga katalinghaga-an
Puti nga Kamantigue, puea nga Katueanga
Sa nagapamunga nga Bili, ro Pilago naga sinadya.
Matin-aw nga sapa
Espeso ku ma-silaw nga kapawa
Ro gugma ro buot it kabuhi
Huo, birthday mo abi
Ngani ginaselebrar ko ikaw
It Maka-ako bugay nga pinasahi!"


One sent me a PM asking why I omitted the "Katsubong" (another wild flower with dark almost blackish color). I told him that it is reserved for my next poem, "Abril". Others reminded me of the richness of the Jal-o with these phrases:
"Sinaga nga aliso, mangagat ag baeanak
Sinaeay nga batod, matin-ag nga gusaw
Sa bakag, sa eamay." 
Those were the days when Jal-o was crystal clear, sweet, rich and deep. Those were the Jal-o of bygone years.



Monday, September 16, 2013

Ro Tag-dapit sa Hae-o: A Prologue

Ro pilapil paadto sa Matalinhaga nga Daean

Ano pa ron ha.  

Bago pa man naka-obog rong mga conquestadores sa suba it Hae-o, rong katunggan nga makaron hay kilaea sa tawag nga Anao,  hay dati eon nga katilingban. Kato nga tiempo, ro katunggan hay baeay para sa mga nanari-sari nga tinuga, makita man o di makita it atong tawohanon mata. Para sa ratong mga tinuga, rong katunggan hay bukon eang it andang ueoli-an, bukon eang it andang daeangpan. Ro katunggan hay tawaya, bugana para sa pang-adlaw adlaw nga kinahang-ean, matawhay nga paeahuwayan, bunayag nga katilingban it tanan nga tinuga kung Makaako nga Kagamhanan.

Sa ratong may mga galing—mga pinasahi nga nakig-angot sa Tuburan it Makaako, sayod nanda rong himaya nga nakatago sa katunggan. Naka-intiende sanda ko matalinhaga nga pagsinaeayo ku tanang bagay nga una sa tawaya. Ro tanan, makita man o indi, nagahueag man o nakatanum, tag-lugar man o mortal, sanda ron hay may bugay nga kina-iya para sa padayon nga pagbilog it Kabuhi sa ginsakpan kung tubi it Hae-o.  Responsibilidad ko kada isaea nga patigayunon nana rong anang kina-iya kumo ruyon rong rason kon ham-an miembro imaw kung katilingban it matalinhaga rona sa Katunggan. Kamana ku Tag-dapit nga si Mang-it ag Nana Ambit. Ginbugayan sanda it galing pinasahi sa ibang tinuga, may kataas eabaw pa sa kahoy nga Danguea, mabaeahibo nga panit ag kahilig sa pinilipit nga abano.

Suma ay maaeam rong Makaako ngani nga si Mang-it ag Nana Ambit hay kapas magbulig sa ratong maintok nga mga tinuga sa pagtabok sa madaeum nga Hae-o. Sa andang pag-obog sa masueog nga tubi, natus-on nanda rong istuyuti daea eon rong andang pagkabutang agod indi mabasa o mahalitan ku iba unang tinuga sa suba. Daea man ku andang kabahoe ag pinasahi nga baeahibo ag kahilig sa abano, kargo nanda rong pagbantay sa kagab-ihon ku Daean nga Matalinhaga pasueod ag pagwa sa likod nga tawaya rona sa katunggan. 

Para sa tag-lugar, ro Daean nga Matalinhaga hay ordinaryo gid lang nga daean. Ogaling, para sa mortal, matalinhaga gid man ron ay sa pagbutlak it adlaw, indi ron makita. Sa tawohanong mata, ro puertahan kon tan-awon hay isaeang ka Nonok o puno it Tugop. Sa taglugar nga may kina-iya nga manguryoso sa bagay-bagay nga hamuea-in, ro Daean hay bukon it makakaeangay kumo ordinaryo.  Ideya ra ku Makaako eamang nga maproteheran rong kada isaea, taglugar man o mortal.  Ag para sigurado gid, ana nga gintugyan kay Mang-it ag Nana Ambit rong responsibilidad sa pagbantay kara.

Ugaling may mga bes nga masaku ro daywang ka Tag-dapit kapin pa kon gabaha ro Hae-o ag ru tubi hay eatob eon hasta sa mga katipusuan una sa katunggan. Tiempo ra nga nahueat ku mga Tag-suba nga magpuka-puka ag magminalit sa mga ibang tinuga rona sa katunggan. Kumo angid sa mga tawo, madali sanda makig-impon sa mga mortal nga nahanaeang rona sa suba. Kay Mang-it ag Nana Ambit, nagakinahang-ean ra nga sindihan nana rong andang abano para matabog ro mga malit pa-uli sa andang buho sa idaeum it mga tipuso. Ro napaslawan una sa andang buho, nagapanangison eon lang, ro andang owang bati-on sa katunggan, “Koh!, Koh!, Koh!”

Tiempo man ra ku mausisang Tag-lugar nga magwarang pagwa sa Daean nga Matalinhaga paadto sa hil-o it mga tawo. Masaku ro Tag-dapit. Owa it bantay ro Daean. Libre ro Ma-usisa sa pagdiskobre ku hamuea-in nga kalibutan.

Sa hamuea-ing kalibutan, sa katunggan it Anao, ro dalagitang unga it maninikop nga si Kagiyaw hay nag-apas sa pangpang it suba agud hatdan si tatay na it ihapon. Gasalikaeom eon ro hapon ag ro tubi amat-amat nga nagaawas. Sa daeanon, solohanon si Kahamungaya nga nagpanikangon.
Ro payag ku maninikop nga si Kagiyaw

Sa makarang sitwasyon, ro katalinhagaan hay nabaeay. Sa Daean nga Matalinhaga, sa tanang tinuga, nagsub-eang rong kabuhi it Mausisang Tag-lugar ag Kahamungayang Mortal. Rong tanan sa hinali hay nagbalhin. Naghinugyaw rong mga agagangis, nagsiga rong mga aninipot, nagpahumot rong mga saliyaw.  Dayon, rong sugilanon nahanungod sa paghigugmaanan it Tawo ag Engkanto hay nag-umpisa. 

Ano pa ron ha.



Thursday, May 16, 2013

The Neighbor I Never Met

We could have talked extensively about Martin Heidegger's Being and Time over several cups of coffee and later on exhaust ourselves on Sartre's Existentialism is Humanism over glasses of brandies. We could have philosophized about the quiet flow of the Jal-o River and collected common memories of its songs composed throughout the ages. But our roads were not meant to cross--even if our houses were only a few meters apart.

I knew my neighbor only from third party. And that knowledge came only later when we were no longer neighbors. I befriended some of his brothers and cousins. I was particularly close to his grandmother, Lola Mabing (Mabina Pareñas Feliciano-Cortes). In my childhood, I had the privilege of turning her orchard into my playground with the perks of having to pick up fallen Rambutan and Chicos--in a time when Rambutan was still an exotic tropical fruit. When she and Lola Pining (Crispina Pareñas Feliciano) died in the 70's, La Mabing's daughter, Nay Inday Ida (Ida Feliciano Cortes-delos Reyes) and her family moved into the vacant Cortes ancestral house besides the Rural Health Center. From then on, I got acquainted with the Cortes family but not the philosopher-journalist.

The cloister of San Agustin Center of Studies in Quezon City (Photo, courtesy
of Marcial Barrios)
The late Joy Cortes delos Reyes is one of the few Baleten-ons who have made it into the mainstream society. He was the current Editor-in-Chief of Malaya Business Insight when he succumbed to death on May 4, 2013 in Roxas City at the age of 59. He suffered for a number of years from lung cancer. As ironies would have it, his remains is interned at the Columbary inside the San Agustin Center of Studies at Fisheries St., Visayas Ave. Quezon City, the very seminary I used to call home at one time in my journey. His remains now rest in peace amid the presence of Augustinian friars I used to break bread with while I wander still, restless, along the path I am now treading.

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Relevant reads concerning my neighbor:

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Uninspired


Something inside urges me to write something today. I refused on many occasions. I argued that I am not inclined of writing something worthwhile befitting of this journal--err, blog. I prefer reading these days. Yesterday, I grabbed a label of an olive oil and tried hard reading the minute printouts written therein. Today, I visited this site hoping to read something that would interest me. It failed. So I decided to surf from the list in my dashboard and I managed to engage my mind into the gibberish that my fellow ghostwriters were trying to advertise.

Then again, I got tired of tiring myself in indulging into those promotions. What the heck! Why not try Facebook instead, whispered an inner voice. "¿Para que?", my rational mind responded readily. I realized later, I was back at square one as if an automaton writing this hallow words with nothing in mind but the desire of tinkering the keyboard of my computer.

At the back of my mind, something tells me that I have a lot of stories to write for others to read. But it is maybe for lack of discipline and focus or for just having a thought disorder that I got entangled into this frivolity. However you may put it, to the common man, I am just being uninspired to-day.


Sunday, January 27, 2013

The Parable of Two Shepherds


       The landlord planned of leaving for a far off place. But before doing so, he saw to it that everything in his ranch are well taken cared of.

For his flock, he hired a couple of shepherd. He called them by their name and entrusted to them his beloved sheep. "Please take care of my sheep until my return", he implored each one of them. Then he set forth on a journey into that far off place.

On their first day alone with the flock, the elder of the two called for a meeting. He informed the other shepherd of his plan. The younger one however found the plan too conservative and presented what he thought was a better, radical and contemporary way of pasturing the flock. The discussion progressed for hours without the two reaching a consensus. A recess was agreed upon and the two shepherds have their lunch--separately, I should tell you, for even in such thing as lunch they could not agree what meals to have. After their siesta, the meeting resumed and their arguments became heated and loud that the hungry sheep below became restless and agitated. By vespers, the two were already resolved of dividing the flock into two groups so to show off to each other that he is the better man to do the job. The evening was cold and they were too tired for the night prayer so they called it a day. Their first day.

On the next day, each of the shepherds was up and about to lead the starving sheep into the greener pasture. The elder of the two declared that he will will guide his flock into the lush field by the river and suggested to the younger that the other flock shall be led up into the hill. The younger protested and suggested the other way around. The squabble progressed for hours without the two reaching a consensus. A recess was agreed upon and the two shepherds have their lunch--again separately, I should tell you, for even in such thing as lunch they could not agree what meals to have. After their siesta, the meeting resumed and soon, another heated and loud argument broke out and the starving sheep scattered everywhere, restless and agitated. By vespers, the two were ready to resolve the disagreement through a toss coin, but a coin they do not have. So they left their famished sheep in the corral and went down to the town to borrow from the sole merchant a coin. The evening was cold and they were exhausted for the night prayer so they called it a day. Their second day.

The bleating of the famished animals woke the two shepherd up. It was their third day. Both realized that their flocks have not eaten for two days and so hurriedly went down. One after the other, they opened the gates of the corrals widely for a quick passage of the flocks. The sheep were already ravenous and all rushed out into the opening where they bottleneck. A stampede ensued which resulted into the death of a large number of lambs, some ewes and a few rams, the injury of many and the destruction of the corrals.  The two shepherds blamed each other for the mishap. Their bickering  progressed for hours without the two reaching a consensus. A recess was agreed upon and the two shepherds have their lunch--separately, I should tell you, for even in such thing as lunch they could not agree what meals to have. After their siesta, the meeting resumed and a more intense, heated and loud argument broke out and the ravenous sheep scampered everywhere, restless agitated and yet too exhausted to tend for themselves. By vespers, the two were ready to resolve the bickering by slaughtering the injured and to donate the mutton of the animals to bystanders and in return thereof, solicit their help in repairing the corrals. So they collected the dead sheep, slaughtered the injured and distributed the mutton among the bystanders in the neighborhood while at the same time solicited their help in repairing the rundown corrals. But the evening was cold and the bystanders managed only to salvage the broken wood while the two were worn out for the night prayer so they called it a day. Their third day.

Early on the fourth day, the landlord returned home and found the now small yet ravenous flock wandering warts and all beyond the broken corrals with no shepherd to be seen nearby. Now, what do you think will he say and do to those egotistical irresponsible pastors he hired?



Thursday, January 17, 2013

Song of the Jal-o


KANTA KU JAE-O
Naga-eumpat ako sa bueogsukan kung Aeatubang
Sa ilaya nga akon ginhalinan
Sa kabukiran sa unhan pa it Benitinan
Kun siin may maberde pang kagueangan.
Iba eon ako makaron
Ilig ko bukon eon it masueog
Kon amat matin-aw pero eaban hay maeobog
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.

Naga-ilig ako sa dagasanan sa Kipot
Sub-eangon ku rong sili pati sa kahoy rong siga ku mga aninipot
Iya eon lang sanda mapabilin kumo ginahingabot
Sa ilawod nga anay anda man nga palibot.
Iba eon ako makaron
Ilig ko bukon eon it masueog
Kon amat matin-aw pero eaban hay maeobog
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.

Padayon rong haganas bisan pa sa tig-ilinit
Sa kurbada sa may Takasan ni Ambit
Sa balsa makaron ag ku baroto anay ni ‘lo Pantit
Sa akon nga sueog naga-eupsi ro imo nga panit.

Iba eon ako makaron
Ilig ko bukon eon it masueog
Kon amat matin-aw pero eaban hay maeobog
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.

Dag-onan ku nga ginadagsaan rong siyam nga katilingban
Eay-on ag dagutdot halin sa kalbo nga kabukiran
Pati eon rong rong hilo sa kaeanasan
Nagahangla sa tangke ro sugpo ag pasayan.
Iba eon ako makaron
Ilig ko bukon eon it masueog
Kon amat matin-aw pero eaban hay maeobog
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.

Iba eon ako makaron
Ilig ko bukon eon it masueog
Kon amat matin-aw pero eaban hay maeobog
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.
Manugpatigayon ku bukid ag ku eawod
Eatayan ku taga Ilaya ag ku taga ilawod.
Iba eon ako makaron
Bisan pa ako mat a ra sa gihapon.

SONG OF THE JAL-O
I drop into the Falls of Aeatubang
Upstream where I came from
In the mountain ranges beyond Benitinan
Under lush of green of the last forest I become.
I have changed from what I had been
For my current are no longer that strong
Sometimes I am crystal clear but typically wrong
Even then, I am still who I am.

I flow  along the rapids of Kipot
Where I encounter the freshwater eel and the luminescence of fireflies I reflect
In here they opted to stay so as not to be caught
Away from the downstream where they are checked
I have changed from what I had been
For my current are no longer that strong
Sometimes I am crystal clear but typically wrong
Even then, I am still who I am.

I keep running my course even in arid days
Take along the bend at Takasan ni Ambit
That through my surge your skin turned pale and blasé
Under the bamboo raft of today just as in the wooden boat of Old Pantit.
I have changed from what I had been
For my current are no longer that strong
Sometimes I am crystal clear but typically wrong
Even then, I am still who I am.

Annually I inundate the nine communities
With silt and debris from the balding hills
And even the sticky pesticides from the factories
To maledict in the ponds the prawns and the shrimps to chills
I have changed from what I had been
For my current are no longer that strong
Sometimes I am crystal clear but typically wrong
Even then, I am still who I am.

I have changed from what I had been
For my current are no longer that strong
Sometimes I am crystal clear but typically wrong
Even then, I am still who I am.
Matchmaker of the mountain and the sea
The bridge of the Ilayanhon and the  dweller by the Balete tree
I have changed from what I had been
Even then, I am still who I am.

Thursday, January 10, 2013

About Face


(The following post is an anecdote involving Batch '84 of then Roxas Memorial School of Arts and Trade [RMSAT], when it was being renamed into Roxas Memorial College of Arts and Trade. The incident took place sometime in December of 1983 at the "campus oval". See related story at this link.) 


       Responding to a cue, the adjutant snappily approached the corps commander and attentively listened to the instruction. Then, he turned around and marched into the middle of the field. Having reached his unmarked destination, he stood at attention and sounded off a command. As in a domino effect, the entire battalion set itself, from company to another, into its desired position.      Yes, all of the entire battalion were in their proper place save for one.

       Prior to the dispatched, a staff sergeant of a platoon gave in to the call of nature. Since he was positioned behind the entire corps, he assumed that his act would go unnoticed. He was wrong. The eagle-eyed corps commander noticed his movement from afar and readily decided to humor his men at the expense of that wayward personnel.

       The staff sergeant was in the middle of his grand performance when the co-ed Citizen Army Training Corps turned about face to witness his “oblation.” 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

When My Daughter Starts Philosophizing


My 12-year old daughter raised a question while I was nursing a hangover one Saturday morning. "Tatay, what does synchronicity means?" 
I stammered for words understandable enough to her curious young mind. Here is my answer:
Late in 2009, I was finalizing the idea of constructing a blog to be called "By the Jal-o River'.  That title is based on a favorite psalm of mine which begins with this word, “By the rivers of Babylon we sat down and wept.” I prepared the design of the header in MS Publisher as I was ignorant then of Adobe Photoshop. Hereunder was that design.



Last year, however, a friend based from down under sent me a copy of a book by Paulo Coelho. The title of the book was, “By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept.” I was amused. But what took my breath away and paused to consider this "meaningful coincidence" (Karl Jung’s) are the similarity of the characters' circumstances with my own "personal legend" (Paulo Coelho's).  

My daughter went away, looking satisfied and thoughtful. As for myself, I did some menial work in the orchard so as to force the alcohol out of my body. Late in the afternoon of that cloudy day though, I found myself still nursing such a terrible headache. Terrible Matador Brandy, I should say. 

Monday, October 8, 2012

When an Elfin Lady Rides a Jeepney

You sat in front of me. But no words were uttered that are directed to each other. There were secret glances thrown, some tacit prayer murmured silently by fettered hearts that refuse respite.  I noticed your sad eyes and the pretty face you wore today. It is strange that such a beauty has such eyes that prefer the distant scene of empty spaces. Do they see the reddening sky as the sun kissed the horizon when others were seeing the juxtaposing neon lights along the stretch of Taft Avenue?

A Donovan cut was playing softly in some unseen stereo. The commuters looked bored and tired and understand not a word. You seem to flow with it rather than riding this slow-moving carriage. The traffic was heavy today, just as it has been in Tita Cory's time and yet you have soared into the wishes of Brother Sun and Sister Moon. Was this a lovely day?, your mind asked your heart. Was this day filled with meaning to justify your resolve of seeing tomorrow's rays?

Your brows curved and they betrayed a couple of lines on your forehead. You have aged much. That's not the way I remember you the first time we met! I remember those moment when you inquired me of my opinion concerning Sartre's La nausée. Where you trying to impressed me then when you came to my place just to ask my mind?  I'd seen you long ago. From a distance. But since the time you paid me a brief visit, you disturbed my quiet existence. You have always been an enigma, an elusive elf whose smile reminds me of the Monalisa and since then, you have enchanted this soul.

Isn't it strange then that we have not exchange words today when we are a seat apart from each other? Busy?

Perhaps.


Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Si Baeägtingaw ag ro Muwâ it Sapá

Anu pa ron ha.

Si Baeägtingaw hay namunit sa sapa. "Sin-o ro nagapamunit sa a'ng sapa?" Ro Muwa nangutana.
"Ako, si  Baeägtingaw!" sabat ku mamumunit.
"Adtunan ko ag itikon si Inang mo." paandam ku Muwa.
"Adtuni." sabat ni  Baeägtingaw.
Ro bantay it sapa hay tumakas paadto sa baeay ni  Baeägtingaw. Idto sa balkon haabutan na si Inang. Dayon anang gin-itik nga nagahambae, "Itik Inang! Itik Inang!......" Si Inang nagligid sa saeog nga nagahinibayad. Nag-ilihi. "Man-o pa ing pagginhawa, Inang?" pangutana ku Muwa sa ina ni  Baeägtingaw.
"Makitid eon lang kay sa pasok." sabat ni Inang.

Masunod nga adlaw, namunit eon man si  Baeägtingaw. Pero bago pa pumanaw, si Inang anang ginhab-on sa taeägbasan.

"Sin-o ro nagapamunit sa a'ng sapa?" Ro Muwa nangutana.
"Ako, si  Baeägtingaw!" sabat ku mamumunit.
"Adtunan ko ag itikon si Inang mo." paandam ku Muwa.
"Adtuni." sabat ni  Baeägtingaw.

Ro sapat it sapa hay tumakas paadto sa baeay ni  Baeägtingaw. Idto sa balkon owa na hakita si Inang. Owa man imaw sa kwarto, owa man sa kusina. Owa sa sala, owa sa pantaw. Owa sa kasilyas, owa man sa dapog. Ginutom ro Muwa it usoy. "Ah, madu-om eon ako it bugas sa taeägbasan." hambae ku sapat. "Aha, iya ka gali sa taeagbasan ha!" anang hambae pagkakita na' kay Inang nga nakahab-on sa taeägbasan. Dayon anang gin-itik nga nagahambae, "Itik Inang! Itik Inang!......" Si Inang nagligid sa taeägbasan nga nagahinibayad. Nag-ilihi. "Man-o pa ing pagginhawa, Inang?" pangutana ku Muwa sa ina ni  Baeägtingaw.
"Maku binlod eon lang it bahoe." sabat ni Inang.

Masunod nga adlaw, namunit eon mat'a si  Baeägtingaw. Pero bago pa pumanaw, si Inang anang ginhab-on sa sag-ob.

"Sin-o ro nagapamunit sa a'ng sapa?" Ro Muwa nangutana.
"Ako, si  Baeägtingaw!" sabat ku mamumunit.
"Adtunan ko ag itikon si Inang mo." paandam ku Muwa.
"Adtuni." sabat ni  Baeägtingaw.

Ro engkanto it sapa hay tumakas paadto sa baeay ni  Baeägtingaw. Idto sa balkon owa na hakita si Inang. Owa man imaw sa kwarto, owa man sa kusina. Owa sa sala, owa sa pantaw. Owa sa kasilyas, owa man sa dapog. Owa man sa taeägbasan. Inuhaw ro Muwa it usoy. "Ah, mainom eon ako it tubi sa sag-ob." hambae ku engkanto. "Aha, iya ka gali sa sag-ob ha!" anang hambae pagkakita na kay Inang nga nakahab-on sa sag-ob. Dayon anang gin-itik nga nagahambae, "Itik Inang! Itik Inang!......" Si Inang nagligid sa sag-ob nga nagahinibayad. Nag-ilihi. "Man-o pa ing pagginhawa, Inang?" pangutana ku Muwa sa ina ni  Baeägtingaw.
"Maku tueo eon lang it tubi sa naatas nga sag-ob." sabat ni Inang.

Anu baea kara ro madason? Baea hay nag-ungkat si  Baeägtingaw it pamunit sa sapa? Kon owa t'a, hay siin na ginhab-on it uman si Inang? Hakit-an man dayon baea ku Muwa rong ginhab-unan kay Inang?

Anu pa ron ha.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Poetic




       







           My poetry is returning to me. Precisely that my sleep these days are shallow and disturbed. Poetry awakens the passionate mind from its slumber. It begets something out of the unprocessed perceptions of both the conscious and the subconscious. It goes beyond logic. It is rebelling yet tolerant of the things that are. It is even if it isn't.


Tuesday, May 1, 2012

THE DECISIONS OF KAGIYAW


My mother used to tell us the legend of how Barrio Lalab got its name during our tender years. The story circles around Kagiyaw, a fisherman who made his living down the brackish portion of the Jal-o during his days. By his days, she meant the time when the Spanish colonizers were still arguing whether the world is round or not.

The story started with a decision. Kagiyaw decided to fish down the Jal-o one morning in summer despite the threat of a dreaded river monster called Kugtong. Soon enough, as he was rowing his boat downstream the river, the giant grouper swallowed him—and perhaps his boat. Wow, that's a really huge fish if it can swallow a boat! But Kagiyaw is the protagonist of the story. So he did not instantly die, otherwise the story would not go further than that. Besides, my mother's story was not a tragedy. It was meant to inspire us despite the apparent tribulations life gives us from time to time.

So, while in the belly of the giant grouper, Kagiyaw heard a voice of a fairy or a bird singing, "Eab-eabi! Eab-eabi!" Was it a kingfisher? The fear and disorientation took flight, and he remembered the knife tied to his hip. He grabbed it and started eab-eab—stabbing the belly of the Kugtong until he got out of it and breathed the fresh, sweet morning air.

His resurrected life.

And the birth of the barrio named Eaeab—Lalab.

Kagiyaw swam with the current and led the dead fish ashore. He salvaged the best part of it and called the attention of other fishermen to help him out with the carcass. Those who joined him scaled the Kugtong in what is now called Sitio Himbis, where, on the bank of the river, one could note the scaled formation of some stones.

Soon enough, the news of the feat of Kagiyaw spread out. People from all over were attracted by the prospect of taking a part of the carcass of the vanquished Kugtong and of meeting the man of the hour. Some of them managed to have a share, which they sun-dried for preservation. Today, the place where they sun-dried the fish is called Sitio Kaeug-a, meaning a place of dried fish.

Some of the meat rotted after long exposure to the elements. The place where some of the carcass decomposed is now called Sitio Ban-os. Residents thus decided to bury the rotten meat to get rid of the foul odor. That place was called Sitio Maeubong, signifying the place where they buried the remains of the Kugtong.

People upstream along the brackish Jal-o waited for their errands to arrive with their prize, only to see them come empty-handed. That place is now known as Sitio Hueaton, or the place where people waited.

Upriver, people grew impatient with the waiting and decided to catch fish for their lunch. They were those from the place called Sitio Pinamunitan, meaning a place where people decided to catch fish through line, hook, and sinker.

The story began with a personal decision on the part of Kagiyaw. It ended with a decision made by a community whose waiting had failed them. They chose to follow the river themselves and go fishing.

And so, along the Jal-o, the story of a fisherman who escaped the belly of a giant grouper lives on in the names of places. The river carries their memories downstream, past Lalab, toward Banga Bay and the Sibuyan Sea.

The people may have long departed, and the Kugtong may have returned to the realm of legend. But the names remain, each preserving a fragment of the story: where the fish was scaled, where its meat was dried, where its remains rotted and were buried, where people waited, and where they finally decided to fish for themselves.

Perhaps that is how a community remembers—not only through the stories passed down by our mothers, but also through the names of places we continue to inhabit.

The river flows on.

The decisions remain.

 


Monday, April 23, 2012

Rowing Down the Jal-o

The water is silent. Deep. It betrays movement. It hides the strong current that runs underneath the aquamarine surface.

Life sometimes is the water that runs silently. It is a movement; a jibing and tacking of some exiled souls.



Tonight, the angel announces: Be at peace, sojourner. Your boat is approaching a bend. For awhile, your are no longer exiled, rowing alone in the river of life. The dawn is about to break. I got for you a boatman who will journey with you to the next embankment.

While on your own, follow the North Star. She will guide you in the pitch black of the night as you navigate the shoals and the sandbars.

Then on the sixth month of the year, you will be reunited with the boatman of your soul. You shall once again row along with the Katilingban and the boatman will lead you home to your community.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Nocturnal Visitors - II

Philippine Leopard Cat
A small leopard cat (marae), Photo credit: scuba schnauzer @ Flickr

Sleep is elusive tonight. Night owls are hooting in some distant trees. My mind wonders into some undetermined nest where some undetermined numbers of small leopard cat kittens remained restless waiting for their mother to return. Early this morning, Dodoy Pusit reported that a carcass of an adult small leopard cat (Marae) was lying in the middle of the highway just across my place. I was busy to give it a look. I just instructed the reporter to take a shovel and bury the dead wildcat.

Now, as I lie down on my back in my bed tonight, Hypnos failed to pay me a visit. My mind worries about the missed chanced of getting to know the thief of my rabbits--are Marae keen of eating rabbits? My neighbors claimed that they prefer wild fruits--bili, santoe, anungaw-tungaw, pakoe. I worry too what will happen to its brood. Dodoy described the remains to be that of a female one on lactating stage. She was trying to cross the highway perhaps to hunt foods into my property. She got unlucky to be crushed by some unknown vehicle speeding on the bend early morning today.

Philippine Leopard Cat
Photo credit: scuba schnauzer @ Flickr
I know this brooding is not productive. Now, convinced that the twin brother of Thanatos is wading still in the River Lethe,
I will focus my mind on the longings of my heart and summon the creative in me to manifest itself--the so called Socratic midwifery. Ever heard of that? (It just like a Zazen exercise, or what the western mystics call, Centering Prayer. But while the latter are both tolerant of the waves on the river, the former is somewhat rigid that one has to go into the deep and silent waters of the mind.)

So my restless heart starts to project on the paper of my mind the words of its longings:
KUNTA
Kunta hay tama si Einstein / Nga mahinay 't a do adlaw magtunod una sa inyong sanib / Agud sa rato hay bisan paalin eon lang / Ako kimo hay maka-anib / Ag bukon nga kita hay magsub-eang / Sa daean nga makitid nga paeanta nga nataeangan / Ku tawo nga umaeagi kumo daean 't a ku maila ag matulin nga marae / Nga ginahamdum na nga isumsuman sa sangka lapad nga Emperador/ Kaibahan si Sartre ag Wittgenstein.
Kunta hay may kaisog ako sa pagsabat / Sa imong pangutana nga kon ham-an / Nga ako kimo hay pirmi eang ginahidlaw / Nga kon imo nga huyapon, maabo nga bes kita naga-iba sa matag-adlaw / Tumaeagsahon eamang rong tini-on sa akon nga panan-aw/ Nga ikaw pirmi ko nga maka-ibahan / Akon nga pamatyag, madasig 't a ro haponanon magbaktas sa nakatungdan/ Akon nga pangamuyo kaanib ko ikaw makaron, hin-aga hasta sa katapusan / Kunta mangin raya man rong imo nga pamat-bat. 


Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Those Which Are Worth Dying For


                  (Here meet the young Frodo Baggins--er, Huck Finn.)

Tonight, I got the chance to refresh my memory of the film, "The Adventures of Huck Finn" (Walt Disney adventure film) on my TV screen--I've seen it in the wide screen sometimes in May of 1993 in SM Megamall. It is one of those attempts to cater to the later generation Mark Twain's Huckleberry Finn. The search of freedom from the conventional society prevails where Huck and his negro friend Jim seek their own way of finding it in their "adventures." The context is the pre-civil war America. The air was parochial. Everywhere, the director (Stephen Sommers) managed to portray scenes of rivers  (Mississippi--not Jal-o, hehe) and swamps, reminiscent of the Twainian panorama.

The search for that which is worth dying for fills the scenes with magic that eludes the understanding of the superficial and the conventional. Huck's passion for adventure would raised eyebrows yet it fills my heart and mind with a sense of awe. Something deep inside asked me: Isn't that what you've wanted to make in your way to the "market place"? Isn't that is what you've always desire to experience, that of being afoot, of being a hiker along the highways of life? If that is so, why not pursue it? Why the reluctance to seek and strive after what you've been dreaming about?

Ah this fear, this rational fear about the possibilities of becoming...


Thursday, January 26, 2012

Meeting Einstein and the Elves Somewhere in Time

     WE GO BACK to our layman's and contextual erudition about Einstein's Special Theory of Relativity, this time, by taking into considerations those "experiences" of a number of people who were privileged of "straying into elfland".

Consider this one. The other day, I met a weirdo for an old man who claimed that he is already a young man when Balete was made into an arabal of New Washington in 1904. I was conducting an interview to supplement the materials available at hand about my town during the time of the Americans when I chanced to meet the man. Sensing my skepticism, he qualified that the secret of his long life is that he visited elfland when he was just turning 16. He intimated that he had a special relationship with an elfin lady who invited him into her abode for a short visit. As far as he can recall, he whiled the night in that "wonderful place" and hesitantly went home the morning after. Upon meeting his family though, he was surprised to learned that they had been frantically searching for him for more than six months and after a year had given up hope of finding him alive.
A visualization of the Lorentz transformation
(Photo credit: Wikipedia org) 

Tay Jose Dandoy, in a separate interview I made in 2000 explained this phenomenon based on the cosmology of our folks mapping out our world into 7 layers (sanib) with our existential world being in the middle of it (We are from the middle earth, not Frodo Baggins, mind you. Hehehe). He avers that to "wander" into the other layers then requires us to travel in the speed of light. The old man and his relatives must have had experienced what physicists termed as "Lorentz transformation" where their respective frames of reference had affected their sense of time. Is that possible?

There are other fantastic stories from a number of people who claimed to have visited elfland. The common denominator for such claim is that they all lost track of their time in the sense that time seemed to run slower "in there" than in our world. The other denominator of course is the sense of deja vu and the sweet voice in one's "pocket watch" that pleads: "Come back to me."

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

A Love Letter to An Elfin Lady



Given the abuse we have done of the environment we lived in, I imagine the stress and pain the elemental are to endure salvaging the goods the Earth. The Ents and the elves are the shepherds of the trees and the forest in the tradition of Tolkien. And men and the industrialist Mordor have systematically destroyed them in the name of development. Such is the threat that can severe the love affair of men and elves. Aragorn (as representative of men) has to soothe the worries in the heart of Arwen (the Princess of the Elves).


My Dearest Lady Arwen:
       I've been meaning to talk to you about the things that I've noticed to have affected you these past few months. I always seem to have the chance but bereft of the courage to articulate them. I don't know why, but the fact is I'm happy to see you smile and saddened whenever I noted your sad eyes. I love to look at your pretty face--such I wish to see each day of my life--which explains why I happen to see the changes in your mood, in your actuation. (Will that qualify me to be your other stalker? Hehehe) 
       Seriously, I'm not trying to interfere with your life, much to intrude. But a part of me wishes to reach out, to express deep concern. These past few days though were crucial. I found myself wrestling with my sense of right and my egotistical tendency. I'm afraid of some foreboding truth--some possibility that --- well....
      I'm really grateful to be given the privilege of friendship. Proud also that you've taken me as someone you can trust with. The romantic part of me has promised you then that I'll be always here for you. To be your shock absorber whenever you need one. But that's poetic. The fact is I can't always be there for you. We both know that. You've experienced that many a number of times. Some people thought I stand on a pedestal of some superhero. But the truth is I'm just someone struggling to live up to my sense of truth and justice, aware of my flaws and imperfections.
       Maybe you've noticed some changes; maybe you don't. Be that as it may, it's human to always build walls, to wear masks as defense mechanism. Love stabs the heart--at times, gently but sometimes, it does deeply. Some lover can bear it though, others can't. Some played the martyr while others just fade out or withered under crisis. True love lives on and beatifies the lover and the beloved. But what of this love I'm professing to you?
                                                                        Constantly loving you,
                                                                         Aragorn


They said that the elves had given up Middle Earth and left it to the care of men. They have sailed their ships into Grey Haven where they commune with the Divine to contemplate His loving presence. As for Lady Arwen, well she has opted to be with her beloved Aragorn.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

The Hypocritic Days: A Meditation on Ralph Waldo Emerson's Days

Ralph Waldo Emerson's Days has been one of the few poems I know by heart.
Subjectively, it is one of my favorite and which has influenced my attitude towards
the literary arts. 

A quiet morning in the woods. The revelry of men of welcoming the new year with big bangs has already been concluded. The highway in front of my place is almost deserted. Just a few hours ago, it was audience to such frenzy of noise: firecrackers cracking, tin cans tied on a speeding motorcycle, drunken drum corps beating drums on a dump truck, and my neighbors banging their cauldrons repeatedly! Now, all is still asleep but me and my household.

A quiet morning in the woods. I found myself  alone in the woods in search for some mushrooms. I seem to have no luck these days finding some. Gone were the days when my old folks would come here and collect a basket-full of "ligbos"--"sangka nigo nga ligbos!" Not even "uhong o amamakoe sa may puno it saging" (Uhong is another variety that sprouts out solitarily while Amamakoe is that bigger variety in small batches that thrives on decaying banana sheaths). I badly need fresh mushrooms for my pasta today.

A quiet morning in the woods. And yet my mind is already noisy with possibilities in view of my failure of finding mushrooms. Options for my pasta--what options do you suggest? No fresh mushrooms for a white-sauced pasta. Can you imagine that? What about experimenting on "Anaea-taea" (my local anise-like herb that thrives along the unnamed creek that cuts through my orchard)? But that will not suffice.

For sure it was a quiet morning in the woods. But this early, my mind is already seeing the scorn. Ah, the scorn! What about it? Hypocritic days make you see the scorn. Not my original. Those are the words of Ralph Waldo Emerson. Yet I was experiencing such reality in the here and now--there in the quiet morning in the woods as I was frantically searching for mushrooms. Am I after Emerson to take this quiet day hypocritic all because I failed to collect mushrooms from their usual thriving ground? This quiet day deceived me into going out into the woods as I anticipated finding some rare mushrooms sprouting out because to-day in a new day, the first of the days of 2012!

 DAYS
DAUGHTERS of Time, the hypocritic Days,

Muffled and dumb like barefoot dervishes,

And marching single in an endless file,

Bring diadems and fagots in their hands.
To each they offer gifts after his will,
Bread, kingdom, stars, and sky that holds them all.
I, in my pleachèd garden, watched the pomp,
Forgot my morning wishes, hastily
Took a few herbs and apples, and the Day
Turned and departed silent. I, too, late,
Under her solemn fillet saw the scorn.

This quiet day deceived me. She seems when she is not. She is a daughter of time, no question about it. She and her sisters are much like those barefoot dervishes who march single in an endless file. And she brings diadems and fagot (opportunities) to offer as gifts for the takers--but not for those who passively waits like Juan Tamad. For the gifts being offered are after his own will. Did I made my lauds this morning? Did I went about my morning wishes first before rushing on to finding mushrooms? I seemed to have been seduced by the pomp of  riches (bread), power (kingdom), vision (stars) and intelligence (sky) that I forgot those simple rituals.  I seem to forget even about her and now as she turned and silently departed, I noticed the scorn on her brow.

Sorry, no mushroom for to-day. Sorry, the days are changing. We let go of them years back for they were hypocritic, that's how they seem. So sorry that it is only now that we are seeing the scorn on her brows.



Monday, May 2, 2011

Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance: The Book that I Should Have Finished but Failed

I love books. I love books that delve on values most especially. Thirteen of my favorites, i.e., something that I've read more than three times and cared enough to hand out as gifts or lend to my friends are as follows:
  1. First You Have to Row a Little Boat: Reflections on Life and Living
  2. by Richard Bode;
  3. Availability: The Problem and the Gift by Robert J. Wicks
  4. The Road Less Traveled: A New Psychology of Love, Traditional Values and Spiritual Growth by M. Scott Peck
  5. Conjectures of a Guilty Bystander by Thomas Merton
  6. The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint Exupery
  7. Hope for the Flowers by Trina Paulus
  8. The Alchemist by Paolo Coelho
  9. Small is Beautiful: Economics as if People Mattered by E.F. Schumacher 
  10. Myth of Sisyphus, and Other Essays by Albert Camus
  11. Jesus Before Christianity by Albert Nolan
  12. Tuesdays with Morrie: An Old Man, A Young Man and Life's Greatest Lesson by Mitch Albom
  13. Voices of Silence: The Lives of Trappists Today by Frank Bianco
  14. All I Really Need to Know I Learned in Kindergarten by Robert Fulghum 
There should be number 14 but I am undecided what title and whose authorship I want to include. But one thing I am certain about and something that keeps on pestering even my subconscious mind--that I should have collected, cared to finish reading and to reread again and again Robert Pirsig's Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance. I first encountered a copy of it while perusing Sartre's works as I attempted to posit that human fulfillment is possible (or tacit) in a Sartrean weltanschuung. I was engrossed of finding my way down the nauseatic lane that I did not pursue the experience of asking myself the question of what is good and what is not. I was dismissive that such rhetorical questions are just nuisance to finding at the end of the road the answers to the great questions of life. So now though late it might be, I set myself to be asked after Pheadrus:
    "And what is good, Phaedrus, and what is not good--Need we ask anyone to tell us these things?" 

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