Showing posts with label Existensialism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Existensialism. Show all posts

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Echoes: Encountering BEC

I do not want to end like the old mariner grabbing people to listen to his story at the sunset of his life. I want it that at the end of the day I rest assured that I have rowed my river and handed on to my children the lessons I have learned in my journey upstream to the House of the Father. So I made, early on, a solemn vow, that I would immerse my four daughters into situations that allow them to know and love the God of Jesus of Nazareth. Sadly, like most promises, mine was half-heartedly kept.
I can justify why I kept on failing. I was trained and educated to find reasons to the things I do. I have a lot of excuses; all of them are sound and rational. Yet honestly, they are like wicker baskets—they hold stones and boulders but not water. The truth of the matter is although I was raised a Catholic, (I even had seven years of formation in the seminary) I am struggling with my faith given my entanglement with Sartrean Existentialism vis-à-vis the clash of orientations at the local church.  Every day I wake up confronted with the question of meaning and automatically finds myself forcing to pray to the God whose existence I keep on questioning. 
Perhaps, my former parish priest senses the civil war raging inside of me and the growing apathy deep within that he keeps on disturbing me in my complacency. Just the other day, when the family was preparing for the Angelus, the monsignor came knocking at my door. He came bearing what he considered good news. He excitedly related that it appears the Division Office of the Department of Education is now adopting a policy concerning the 90-minute religious instruction per the 1997 Constitution. The move is supportive of his catechetical program in Batan (Aklan). 
The monsignor has pioneered in the Diocese of Kalibo a community-owned school-based catechetical program. The program, like a mustard seed, is silently thriving and gaining strong support among small communities in the whole municipality of Batan. Without wishing to, it is fast becoming part of the mainstream society that policy makers are giving it a second look. It started small. The parish priest and his coadjutors simply and consistently celebrated the Eucharist in the barrio chapels monthly. Then slowly, they encouraged parents and ordinary teachers to hear masses in schools too. Soon enough the team of three priests finds themselves busy saying masses and attending community and PTA meetings.  At present, each of them has more or less 13 masses a week, not to mention funeral and wedding masses and community meetings.
The communities became articulate. They demanded that the local schools afford their children their right to religious instruction as provided for in the Philippine Constitution. Equally, the ordinary government teachers heeded the call and volunteered themselves as instant catechists, despite their lack of training and to most, experience in catechesis. Thus begin the community-initiated school-based catechetical program that the Diocese is now gearing up to replicate in other parishes. Presently, the teachers who responded to the call number to about 200 more or less. They have received specialized trainings from the Institute of Religion of the University of Sto. Tomas (UST-IR) and had been certified by it as professional catechists. They catechized their pupils and students voluntarily as their token of gratitude to the communities that have supported them all along and as a response to the call they heard on the "Road to Damascus." Modules on New Catechism in Akeanon dialect are being developed with the assistance of the Diocesan Catechetical Ministry.
The multiplication of the bread is one ordinary yet wonderful miracle in Batan. One can note such reality in their breaking of bread whenever a communal affair takes place, say a seminar on catecheses or a Sunday Mass in their tiny chapel. A peninsular agro-fishing community harboring Batan Bay and facing the Sibuyan Sea, it prided itself of the richness not only of its natural resources but also of its history, heritage and culture. The Augustinian missionaries who interacted with the locals in 1600’s as narrated in Apuntes Historicos of Fray Juan Fernadez, OSA were impressed of their highly cultured and communitarian manner. He writes of this impression on Batangnons being:
“…the most noble in the Archipelago, a highly-cultured group
                              with well  built  beautiful  houses  and  many  well-organized
                              villages…” (p. 275)

The friars further noted that they were neither wild nor refractory. The memory of the race perhaps remains intact in the consciousness of the present generation that they positively responded to the initiative of their parish priest and readily regarded the program as their own and give it their all-out support.  Personally, I believe God is working wonderfully on the openness and generosity of these people most of whom had long been “unchurched” and marginalized by the mainstream society that typically represented the institutional church.  I had witnessed the transformation from their being indifferent Catholics to what are now budding witnesses and active members of Basic Ecclesial Communities. I am neighbor to them. By parentage, I am Batangnon too. As a child, I used to roam around the fishpond on my grandfather in Sitio Pinamunitan, Barangay Lalab and had known the saga of Kagiyaw along the meandering waters of the Jal-o and the legend of how Lalab got its name.  Precisely that I always take it as an opportunity to be of service—though in my own little way—to the Batangnon communities everytime Msgr. Frac asked me to write something related to his pastoral works. I consider it my role being part of the One Body of Christ made manifest in Batan BECs. To me, I am merely a follower of Christ Jesus and a servant of God. What I have had accomplished are my duties and for that I expect neither a reward nor gratitude.  The outpouring of help coming from the members of the community every time an event takes place either in the Parish or in the schools or chapels are manifestations of this understanding that each faithful is merely doing her/his duty in this brotherhood of ours in Christ Jesus. They are one with the whole Body of Christ. They see themselves as the Church.
            The multiplication of bread in Batan is one miracle that calls on me to reach out my left hand and thrust it on the bleeding wounds of the risen Jesus. But the fact that in Batan there are small communities regarding themselves as the Church despite their poverty is one miracle that tells me that God has pitched his tent in their midst to dwell with them. Indeed, as St. Ireneus used to say, their very existence is joy, A MIRACLE OF GOD!  
            The presence of my former parish priest in my house is an encounter rich with meaning and graces not only for me but most importantly for my family. I pray therefore that he may keep on disturbing us in our complacency that we may always be restless until we rest on the bosom of our Father in a New Heaven and a New Earth.
            

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Timeline II - Balete During the American Pacification

Answering questions leads to more questions. That is a fact. A fact that only proves that man is a rational being. No other animate being on Earth is capable of that. A few creatures shows retention. But they are not historical being for historicity is not one of their endowed faculties. Only man is capable of retrospection and of getting in touch with his past. Aided by his tools, he can easily go back into yesterdays, at least for the time being, in virtuality. Einstein's Special Theory of Relativity though is a tease for him to attempt at going back into time in his existential form. Be that as it may, let us be content with delving into the Baleten-on's historic past, perhaps to get insights in approximating that better Balete than yesterdays.

Herewith then is my additional entry, a follow up to my initial timeline for those who want an airplane grasp of Balete's historic past. My other entries on local history are spread out in the pages of this blog indexed as "local history", "historicity", "characters", "Balete", "Aklan", culture/heritage", "Jal-o". You can find some of them also in my Scribd account as well as that of Balete Association International's Tripod account (although that was not updated).


1897 – Early in March, Candido Iban and Francisco del Castillo organized the Katipunan at Kuntang (now Ochando) with some 100 men coming from all over the Aklan Valley. New Washington celebrates it as the Pacto de Sangre (The Blood Compact). Later in the same month both leaders were executed together with some other compatriots. The rest had gone to the hills.
1898 – In August, the pueblo of Batang fell to the hands of local Katipuneros based in Makawili Hill, near Sitio Himbis, Barrio Lalab, barely a couple of months after Aguinaldo declared in Kawit, Cavite the Independence of the Philippines from the Spanish colonizers.
1898 – Late in 1898, Aguinaldo sent to Navas an expedition led by Gen. Diocno. They entered Batang in August of 1899 after pacifying Calivo and therewith established a revolutionary government.  
1899 – In September, the war against the American broke out.
1900 – Proclamation of Amnesty by the American colonial government and the organization of the Philippine Scouts with 8 companies assigned in Panay Island.
1900 – Late in October, the War Department of colonial government decided to put up a sustain military campaign in the three provinces of Panay Island. Captain Morton operated in the Aclan valley.
1901 – the Philippine Commission adopted the Municipal Code and Provincial Laws.
1901 – Balete was destroyed by the American forces composed 70 enlisted men on February 9. In the same day they had a skirmished with the Katipuneros along the way. In June, elements of the same forces went up the mountains capturing an insurgent in the process. Later, Gen. Diocno was wounded and captured at Makawili in March 17.
1903 – Census of Population. Balete had 5,529.
1903 - Gov. Gen. William H. Taft sent out his representative to reorganize the local governments throughout the country. In the province of Capiz, he commissioned Benito Luzzurriaga to reorganize the municipal government. When Luzzuriaga and his companion arrived in Dominguez (Lagatic), a barrio of Batan, they found the place suitable for the establishment of a good port.
1904 – the Americans fused Batang, Balete and Jimeno into one municipality with its seat of government at Lagatic.  But to make it more symbolic they renamed the place New Washington.
1904- The first Presidente Municipal of the newly created New Washington town was from Balete in the person of Mr. Juan Oquendo who was to serve for one year (1904-1905). Those who served after him were as follows:
Mr. Florencio Melecoton, 1906; (other texts either have Melocoto   or
      Melecoton)
                                    Mr. Ananias Mariano, 1907;
                                    Mr. Blas Feliciano, 1908-1909; (Baleten-on)
                                    Mr. Pedro Cortes[1], 1910-1916;
                                    Mr. Eulalio Feliciano, 1916-1919; (the last Baleten-on to be
                                            Elected as Presidente Municipal of New Washington)
                                    Mr. Rufino Sucgang, 1920-1922.

1917 - Executive Order No. 88 was signed by Gov. Gen. Francis Burton Harrison creating the Municipality of Altavas (formerly Jimeno) as the 32nd Municipality of Capiz. The sponsor for the creation was a Baleten-on in the person of Sen. Jose Cortes Altavas.

1920 - Balete was reestablished as the 33rd Municipality of Capiz. (all pertinent documents of that time points to 1920 although we do not have at our hand a copy of the Executive Order issued by the governor general. We also do not have a iota of idea who sponsored its separation from New Washington)  

As I have stated earlier, answers lead to more questions. For the time being, let us live with questions for they are the ones that are existentially real. Perhaps, in some distant future, we will be living with the answers.


[1] The Research Committee of Altavas however recorded that Mr. Juan Oquendo was reelected in 1910. He was supposed to serve until 1916 as the term of office of local officials were made into five years.  He failed even to complete a year as he resigned for unknown reason. In Lieu, his vice-presidente, Mr. Pedro Cortes acted as the chief executive of New Washington until 1916.




Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Simply Grand: My Life on the Zip Line

Be Forewarned: Ride at Your Own Risk!


Diving into a zip line is like getting married. Once you took off, there is no getting back. You have to take the plunge, attend to your fears and leave the rest to the line. Like the married life, the zip line enables you to experience all-in-one, both attraction and dread, the challenge, the excitement, glory, ecstasy, regret, fulfillment.

THE ATTRACTION

Zip line always attracts, just like a pretty face is. But the zip line in Lake Sebu, South Cotabato is an irresistible elfin lady. It towers the Seven Falls that emptied from the lake at an elevation of almost 600 meters. It consists of two stations, the first extends to 700 meters (from Falls No. 1 to Falls No. 5) while the other is 400 meters (from Falls No. 5 to Falls No. 2). The lush vegetation, the panoramic scenery and the enthusiasms of those who queue to take its challenge are more than enough to enchant a restlesshiker like me to try giving into its seduction. So impulsively I decided to dive, attracted at the prospect of having to zip over a breathtaking elevation of more than 1,900 ft.

THE DREAD

The package consisting of two zip lines costs one rider Php. 250.00, cheaper by more than a haft than that in Boracay (Mr. Loho). That one is encouraging. The harness were on and I was positioned for the plunge. Then one of the staff gave a push and I was zooming down fast. I am used to sprinting my bike at 110 km/hr. but not this kind. I seemed to zip at more than 150 km/hr here. My mind was slow to react. It wanted to say stop. It bargained with the zip line, "Hey, I've decided early and impulsively. Can we put a hold on this?" But the line was impervious. My palms were wet and the mind struggled, forced at last to confront its fear.
Wingless though I am, I fly like the eagle

A LEAP OF FAITH

After the dread, came the doubt. My mind wrestled with those unfounded fears. It overcame them only to be assailed by more doubts. What if all hell broke loose? What if the harness or the line itself gave off. Then again, the line beckoned me to be present to the moment. "Hey, you are an eagle now. Use your eyes to see yonder the things only those gifted with flight can behold. Feel the apparent wind caressing your face and allow it to dry your perspiring hands. Spread them out as if your wings. Give in to momentariness by letting go of your dread and doubts. You are on an eagle's wing now."

ALIVE

Giving in to the present moment is a difficult task to achieve. The many distractions technology has gifted mankind make it almost a Sisyphean task to accomplish. But zip line liberated me out of my preoccupations even for a brief passing moment. Having confronted my fears, my angst and doubts, the experience opened up my senses and perceptions to see the world in a brand new light. Suddenly, I felt so much alive. Zipping across the crevice that separates Falls No. 5 to Falls No. 2 was so grand that I heard myself laughing out loud, wowing and howling like an honorable drunk. The air was cool, the canopy of trees below was gaping at my passage. The waterfalls cascaded in symphonic jubilation and a few birds joined me in surveying a vision pure and fair.

FORGETTING, REGRETTING AND WORRYING: THE TOUCHDOWN

As I approached the end of the line, I noticed a photographer framing my expected touchdown. My attention was diverted from the present to that proximate end. The approach was faster than the initial takeoff. Again, I was seized by a frantic dread, a panic it seemed. "How am I to touchdown at this speed?", my mind questioned the line. "I should have not taken this flight in the first place. But here I am, a stupid mule wanting to be an eagle. When will I ever accept my facticity?

I remember a koan. The master asked his disciple, "What is the sound of the clap of one hand?" The unperceptive disciple was unable to answer and got slapped in the process. I got slapped in the process. At 5 meters to the end of the line, something on the pulley atop my harness held my approached all of a sudden. I landed on my legs, now wobbling and shaking exactly at the landing area of Falls No. 2. My mind wondered how did I abruptly stopped and I noticed a rope attached to   the line that served as arrester pulled by a staff positioned about 8 meters immediately before the end of the zip line.

AFTERTHOUGHT: A CELEBRATION

When have I celebrated life? Was giving off birthday bash a celebration of it? Can we qualify our attendance to a christening event, to a graduation ceremony, to a wedding, to an oathtaking a celebration of life?  What about attending a funeral, or a necrological ceremony? Can we say that we are affirming life when we visit the sick in a hospital?

Life in the zip line is a celebration. It is a personal celebration only because I was fully aware of being fully alive for that brief passing moment. It was a wedding and a birthday celebration, a christening, a graduation, an oathtaking. It was funeral as well as a necrological ceremony, even a visitation of the sick, simply because of that awareness to the precious present moment that comes only to but once for a mortal man like me.

The zip line tells me: YOU ARE NOT SUPERMAN. NEEDLESS TO SAY, YOU ARE ALIVE.


Friday, May 24, 2013

Seduced to be God


This piece is also posted in my other blog, "Our Restless Journey"

Pope Francis' commentary on Mark 9:38-40 last Wednesday, May 22, 2013 during the Feast of St. Rita de Casia, OSA, the patron of impossible things, draws much attention in a society that is fast becoming secular. His words were headlines and the next most shared item in social media. Why is that? Sermo humilis? 

The other day, he was talking about the possibility of all men of goodwill entering the Kingdom of God, and he means, "all" including even those who refuse to believe in the existence of God. Yes, my friend! Even if you're an atheist or an agnostic, you can inherit New Heaven and New Earth. The proviso is simple. Do good works. Be good and shun evil. 

Now, this reminds me of a youthful desire brought by an "entanglement" with Sartrean Existentialism. Human reality desires to be God. To Sartre, this is bad faith. Man is deluded to believe that he can be happy in the afterlife. He refused to accept the fact that he is thrown into a world bereft of meaning. Ours, Sartre asserted, is an absurd world, and our existence a nauseating facticity. 
Sartre's Ontological Dilemma

Man is invited to return to freedom. He is asked to be responsible for himself, not to desire to be God but to accept that he is his own god. He must be honest to see things as they are. They are nauseating because they are "de trop", superfluous and meaningless.When, after undergoing "existential psychoanalysis", he starts his journey as a forlorn being-for-itself, man gains lucidity and assume a "positive existence". He now creates meaning where originally there was none. He begins to be responsible for himself, for his actions. He begins to be good, to be his god. 

Such was the seduction Sartre was offering man as an alternative. Yet as a young man, how can he carry the responsibility of being his own god? How can he endure the loneliness of worshiping himself without a community to belong to? How can he meet others and start doing good together? 
The Possibility of Good in Sartrean Philosophy

Atheism is always a lonely path, reserved for the strong and the courageous who care less to be deviant. The believers on the other hand are the lowly, the weak, the fearful, the marginalized, the humble, the contrite of heart, the common man who choose to walk along with his fellowman in the hope of returning home together to the House of the Father. Redemption is indeed offered to all at the cost of the blood of the Lamb. But even then, each and all is asked to choose to inherit Heaven or to be condemned into Hell, be it existential or otherwise. By our standards, this seems impossible. Precisely that Pope Francis prays for the impossible things to happen:


"Today is [the feast of] Santa Rita, Patron Saint of impossible things – but this seems impossible: let us ask of her this grace, this grace that all, all, all people would do good and that we would encounter one another in this work, which is a work of creation, like the creation of the Father. A work of the family, because we are all children of God, all of us, all of us! And God loves us, all of us! May Santa Rita grant us this grace, which seems almost impossible. Amen.”

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Uninspired


Something inside urges me to write something today. I refused on many occasions. I argued that I am not inclined of writing something worthwhile befitting of this journal--err, blog. I prefer reading these days. Yesterday, I grabbed a label of an olive oil and tried hard reading the minute printouts written therein. Today, I visited this site hoping to read something that would interest me. It failed. So I decided to surf from the list in my dashboard and I managed to engage my mind into the gibberish that my fellow ghostwriters were trying to advertise.

Then again, I got tired of tiring myself in indulging into those promotions. What the heck! Why not try Facebook instead, whispered an inner voice. "¿Para que?", my rational mind responded readily. I realized later, I was back at square one as if an automaton writing this hallow words with nothing in mind but the desire of tinkering the keyboard of my computer.

At the back of my mind, something tells me that I have a lot of stories to write for others to read. But it is maybe for lack of discipline and focus or for just having a thought disorder that I got entangled into this frivolity. However you may put it, to the common man, I am just being uninspired to-day.


Tuesday, August 28, 2012

The Day After the Feast of St. Augustine

Yesterday (August 28) was the feast of St. Augustine of Hippo. I celebrated it in silence and alone with you. I reminded you about it as if you need reminding. All these years, I remain as restless as a young man as he ran in pursuit for some truths to satisfy his curiosity of his carefree days. You are witness to such restlessness.

Time brought changes into all those that are. Here I sit a day after the feast day of my patron saint holding on to a past that is already gone trying to rally for its continued hold into the culture that is fast becoming obsolete. It remains present though in a mind fixated to those moments of wild abandon of bygone years. Here I endure and convince myself to accept the things of the present moment that are consequences of such puerile and reckless "indecisiveness."

Yet my heart is not at rest. There is stubbornness that wanted to rebel against the "consequenced-past" and the "regrettable present." It is hard to vision out my path into the "desired future" lest I become a Sisyphean troll or a condemned Promethean man.

I must teach myself to accept the things of the present...to live with it (without judging its value?).

Yes, these are the images I painted in my mind a day after I celebrated my patron saint's feast day alone with you. Those were the thoughts wandering about in the region of dissimilarity, set aside my conjectures about the laws of attraction and gravitational pull vis-a-vis the subtle influence of the dictum, "Amor meus, pondum meum." But such things are as I said, conjectures.

Monday, January 30, 2012

A Reflection on the Master's Piano Sonata No. 8 in C Minor Op. 13

   BEETHOVEN'S Symphony No. 5 in C Minor Op. 67 is playing in my head. Alive! A movement so sure of itself (technically, there are four movements in the opus). How I wish I am that kind of music!

Well, I suspect that I am on the road to recovery. No. The wound's tender scar still hurts. But I do not know where this sense of tomorrow comes from albeit the pain I am enduring that shied my psyche from considering the possibility of a morrow.

I have been alienated from Ea or to say it more aptly, technologies have alienated me from Ea. And there are restless sleepless nights to contend with. Such are manifestations of fear and worries, and of failing to grasp the graces of those hypocritic days.

I am still sad like the Master's Moonlight Sonata (Piano Sonata No. 14). Yet I know that someday I shall celebrate Ea's company and we shall dance and run across the fields of lilies as if enchanted by the Master's Pastoral  (Symphony No. 6). Then we shall be one once again, and in perfect union, we shall be enjoying the panorama of the valley of trees and the fields yonder, mesmerized by the glittering beads of diamonds on the wet grasses on a summer's morn. Playing like two innocent children in the Garden, we shall be holding each other's hands dancing and laughing out loud amid the flowers abloom. Up over us in the wide expanse of blue sky are birds singing and cheeping their kind of song.

As the sun sets, we will sit side by side each other watching the sun as it kisses the horizon in silence. We will be speechless as well to commune with this manifestation--for a long moment, sitting quietly, thinking of nothing, pondering the quietness. Just being in that momentous present, aware but not judgmental of each other's presence, contemplating and experiencing the beauty of being alive, of being present in that instant as the sun sets.

Filled with hope that a new day will dawn upon us, we shall embrace each other with certainty that we will make it together to the end of our time (be it that we experience its reality differently as in Lorentz transformation).

Such is my reflection (or if you prefer, daydreaming) of Beethoven's Piano Sonata No. 8 in C Minor, Op. 13.

Monday, January 9, 2012

The Search for Meaning: A Memoir

January 1993

The fang of excitement got hold of me this evening. I sang out loud releasing all the fire that burned my inner self. You see, there are few remaining weeks and I would be on my own venturing into new lands, discovering new frontiers, trying to know the rope of life, the way to the market place.

The curiousity of discovering something other than what I've known and seen do further add to the excitement felt within.

I am still restless. Just as what I've written in my introduction to my thesis, man is moved by that recalcitrant  yearning for meaning. Man will always be restless as long as he is in wont of knowing his true nature and expressing it authentically in his own unique, creative manner of coming to be.

I am in search for that identity. It is a painful though. Sometimes as wise men attested, the quest is fraught with danger--existential and otherwise. Along the path one might thread there are Damocles swords handing precariously ready to cut him into pieces.

But I will take that risk. Nothing will happen to me if I don't plunge myself into the water. We learn much about life on the dusty streets than inside the damp libraries. Life gets choke up in boredom when it is robbed of adventures, of questions, of curiousity, of daring, of doubts.

The discovery of the self follows through--when man has undergone the test of fire and the baptism of blood. It is in the fruits that one gets to know what kind of tree grown of him after all the years of germination. And that if ever one falls short of what is desired, at least the legacy will keep the banner high and push through with the Odyssey till Ithaca is reached.

Life, so beautiful, so mysterious. How great it is for one man to comprehend!

THE STORIES OF THE RINGS

  I simply want to preserve the humor that resides within the otherwise exacting relationship between the I and the Thou. That is why I am...